easy.
christmas has been a blast, other than a few major set backs it's been awesome. Probably lost a couple of good friends in the process but i guess it has to happen sometimes. Spent a lot of time in wakefield and had too many narcotics but its a win i guess. I like call of duty and playing poker, it's been sick. Whiskey Wednesday tonight? we having it?

NYE tomorrow. I met a girl the other week and she'll probably be there tomorrow, so we'll see how that goes. She seems nice and i got her number, but i don't know her, and i'm completely rubbish at this shit, she's not interested at all is she? Got some nice new woolly jumpers though and they're dead cozey and sorta make me look acceptable for society.
going out in wakefield? girls? woolly jumpers? spooning with ben an awful lot? slowly turning into a mincer i think.

Not looking forward to going back to work next week but fuck ittttt. I'm off for a growler.

hello hello.
christmas has been pretty good. quiet &laid back but good. i'm at work today, tomorrow &thursday though which sucks.
i got lots of amazing presents, infact i was spoilt. sean bought me shitloads of stuff bless him.
i mainly got;
£500 (but i'm gonna use it for florida i think)
Viktor & Rolf Flowerbomb perfume &body lotion <3

Loads of victoria secret underwear/ pyjamas/ sweatpants.

i'm comfy.

Some Philosophy skincare stuff, including;

which comes in a little box shaped like a house.

a cath kidston travel bag;


a lush gift box (and then i got another one free on boxing day for spending £20 in the shop. scorrre);


& loads of chocolate.

&now my bathroom looks ridiculous;


also i've just treated myself to obnoxious fake chanel watch which should be here in 10 days;

hello i need you in my life obviously.

went out in wetherby on christmas eve &saw EVERYONE &got super drunk with my dad, andy ireland &woola.
abused my ex boyfriends sister &him &other people. they definitely deserved it. "i never liked you" his sister said to me totally unprovoked. but you like your brother? alright then. obviously a good judge of character.
saw troy gammon. always good.
i fell over at the top of harris' stairs before i'd had anything to drink &subsequently my ankle was blue for the entire weekend.
&then i reconciled with a girl who i absolutely hated in my 17-year-old-i'm-a-twat-phase &found out i probably had no reason to dislike her.
so glad i didn't see my old form tutor, there would have been some words said.
i've never been hungover on christmas day before, it was awful.

i have spent the latter part of 2009 wearing only this-
during the day;


and this at night;


boring.

anyway posi posi posi!

this week is for getting my hair done somewhere i've never been before, but sometimes i think it's best to go to someone new &just demand what you want doing. also this way i can lie about the torture it has been through.
NYE - probably just doing something lowkey as the taxi back to mine on NYE is £60. fuck off.
catching up on sleep.

2010 is looking good so far. starting january off by going to london for a weekend to see brand new &glassjaw &staying in a 4* hotel.
then it's my birthday & i will be looking for a new job.
then florida for a week in february <3

Proof that communists make the best salesmen:




I like the second one best.

It's christmas day, so what better time for a livejournal entry?
I'm enjoying it actually. Not in a, "omgz its christmas" sorta way, but a, "this is a nice day, but im still sat on facebook inside" sorta way.

Chilling in wakey last night with the lads, was good. watched that Paranormal Activity dogshit last night. It was alright, not terrifying, but bits of it were quite chilling. got beyond stoned, it was sick. We drove back to leeds this morning and I came back to Wortley to an empty house, had a beer and a bath and my dad got here. I took the dog to the park for the traditional smoke. It was lovely, it was so sunny but a thick blanket of smoke covered the park. Havent seen weather like that on christmas day in bare time. Going over to the flat later go get bog eyed which i'm looking forward to. After all, it is just any other day.

Spoke to my mam an all, it's like 36 degrees over there. silly bollocks.

This week has been eventful. ups and downs, cries and laughs. the usual. QUEENZ SPEACH. lets see what 'ar lizzies saying. silly sod. I'm half cut, tonight will be a good one. if anyone is reading this, come get munteddd

I am in my house wearing 3 jumpers and a t shirt. I'm so fucking cold but I refuse to turn the heating on cos I don't want to pay. It's quite agonising really :) I suck.

So yeah. February should be the month when everything turns around and the advent of hope - so lacking of late - should give me one last chance to do something with myself.

It's practically the end of the road, I've tried scriptwriting, teaching, call centre training and even pyramid selling, if i decide I don't want to be a journalist, I'll probably never get a decent job, so I might as well throw myself into it whether I enjoy it or not. My dad did it, and he likes Adam Sandler films, so surely I can.

i'm effing freezing. this house is never warm. why the hell am i even in this country?
this year is colder than last year. or maybe that's because i actually go outside these days, whereas last year i just didn't.

christmas shopping; all done.
wrapping presents; pending.

i'm pretty impressed with myself. last year i was wrapping presents on boxing day praying royal mail would deliver stuff before new year atleast.
this year i am 10x more excited about giving my presents than recieving them. with the risk of sounding cocky &it all backfiring, i can safely say i have bought some awesome presents.

i got my present off my parents already. i got £500. i have no idea what to spend it on.
i want to spend it on something special &i definitely don't wanna blow it on nights out &shit clothes i'll never wear. that's what my wage is for. so i'm going to have to have a proper think.
i already saved up for florida in august, well, enough for the flight &by the time august rolls round i'll have saved for the rest. SUPER ORGANISED.
if i had infinite time off work i'd just spend it on another holiday somewhere else.
alas, no such luck.

speaking of work, 2010 is definitely the year to find a new job.
i'll be 24, i have a degree from a decent uni &i like to think i'm pretty employable. what the fuck am i playing at then?
everyone says i just need to apply for awesome jobs &have more faith in myself but i'm no good at it. as soon as i see "*generic job descrpition word* experience desirable" i just jack the application in, when in reality i know i could do the job.
time to start making myself sound better than i actually am &going for it.

oh &as if my rubbish wage &uniform wasn't reason enough to quit my job, on wednesday i BUMPED INTO A CORPSE. the corpse of a child at that. fucking gross. i think i turned green.
&one of my favourite patients died aswell. which just sucks.

in happier news, i had a lazy weekend. i mean i literally bailed on everyone to catch up on sleep, finish buying presents &eat. went to this amaaaazing steakhouse in town &had the best steaks ever, it was so wonderful &they had a man on the piano playing brilliant songs.
i have a 50% voucher to use in january so we're going for my birthday. get involved.

i finally cut my extensions so they're actually wearable;
&then i made a hair appointment for NYE &i'm gonna bleach the hell out of it. so these will be made useless.

after christmas i will definitely be buying some of this underwear (ignore the twat modelling it);

i watched some old office last night. this is probably the best moment ever;
i'm meant to be going out tomorrow night but i'm not sure i can face work hungover on wednesday. especially when i have a meeting at 9. but it is christmas &i have stopped caring so maybe i'll grow some balls &go.
i'm off to get a credit card because america wont let me do/have ANYTHING without one. dangerous, dangeous times.

really excited about new year, new start etc.
2010 is for moving in with boyfriends, new jobs, new friends, better prospects, city centre apartments!
also quite looking forward to christmas eve in wetherby for once. will be nice to catch up with people i haven't seen since last year.
sean &i have decided we seriously need to find another couple to double-date with. as sad as it sounds, it would be more fun to go out for meals with other people &stuff. this is a sign of getting old.
also i definitely need to surround myself with some more focused people. it gets stagnant when everyone i know seems to be happy just plodding along &doing the bare minimum and no one has any DRIVE to do better. it infuriates me at times &i'm sure if i was around people with mad ambitions &stuff i'd be more inclined to get off my arse.
this is a criticism of myself as much as of other people.

all i really want for christmas is one of these;


boston terrier <3

last night i had a dream about my friend cassie who lives in america &i haven't spoken to for like 3 years as we lost touch. time to re-connect i think.
right, present wrapping &new hills time <3